Monday, January 21, 2008

?Questionable Behavior...

"Wherever you are, be all there. Live to the hilt every moment you believe to be the will of God." -Jim Elliot

There is something amazing about this quote. This was spoken by a man who was so in love with God that he put a relationship with the one girl he ever loved on the back burner and dove head first into missions work. 5 years of corrisponding with this beautiful woman about what God was doing and how he was feeling about everything. Not only could they not be together, they weren't even near eachother. He was a missionary fulfilling the call of God. He said to live to the hilt. The maximum. The most. The best. All of it. Live it to the HILT if you believe it to be the will of God and embrace it.

God is in everything. He's in us. The earth. The UNIVERSE. Every situation and call. Every decision and season of our life. He touches the trees and they come back to life with leaves and blossoms of elegance. He looks at us, His children, with love and He is not afraid to care for us the way He does. He makes every day new. Always. It's NEVER just the same old day.

This has been my struggle. Embracing His will for my life even when it seems like I'm not doing much. I'm in high school. I've been in school for the majority of my life knowing that from September to June of every year I would have it all planned out and know what was going on. I always knew school would be there. And (sometimes unfortunatly) it is...almost every monday through friday...I wrote a previous post about decisions and making them. Now I'm thinking about these quiet moments and embracing them. You see. I've been questioning God a LOT lately. "What's your will?" "How will I...?" "What will I..." (I KNOW you know this one:) "Who will I marry?" Questions about boys and a prom date. Questions about what to do and when can I go? Those questions. This is the conclusion I have made. Now People can tell you all day long "Who by worrying can add another say to His Life?" "Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself." "It's all in God's perfect timeing." Good stuff to say. :) But sometimes I have to walk through things to really understand why people say things like that. You see. God really is Good. He really does have a plan and it will come to pass. Then it will be memories. Testimonies. Joy and pain past. I have had to stop myself and say a quick prayer because, really, when it comes down to it we tend to miss those moments. We spend such a crazy amount of time looking for the big moments that will rock our socks off or change us forever that we don't take the time to admire the small ones. Example: When you are in a relationship with a boy or a girl and they do something like look into your eyes...or the way they talk to children and things like that you admire it. The small stuff. The little moments. Why then, can we not admire the small moments with God in our lives? Because regardless of the moments magnitude is it not still God's will? Why then, has it become so hard to relax in His arms in the quiet? Why do we feel far from God when we aren't doing something big like a missions trip or making big decisions? Why can we not just admire the grass that He made or the fact that the sunset was gorgeous and He knew you'd love it? You see. Something got mixed up somewhere along the line and we began to think that we weren't going to be close to God unless we felt the shaking in your shoes, Holy Spirit, breath-taking, heart shaking, earth quaking, chain shattering, tears streaming, head pounding, voice losing moments. It took me a while to understand that God really does see all. And He loves those huge leaps and heart pounding moments as much, if not more, than I do. But, God also watches me when I'm falling asleep at night and He loves to just sit in the quiet of my bedroom and watch me sleep. It's in those small, quaint and quiet moments that He also smiles. So. If you believe it to be the will of God, weather it be the most nerve racking time for you ever...or it be a time where you feel that you aren't doing "anything"...live it to the hilt because that moment has come and will be gone and nobody can get it back. Have faith. He who promises is faithful and all of the promises will come to pass...You'll do His will if your heart is after Him and you are following Him but please don't go on any longer doing what I did...missing Him in the small moments because I was waiting way ahead of His timing for the big moments to come.

2 comments:

Carissa said...

thank you SO much for writing this post. it is definitely something i need to remember! you are such an amazing girl with so much wisdom!!!! love you so much!
Carissa

Lindsey said...

awesome word Paige! i have this phrase that i made that i thought of as i read your blog... and i am so glad you talked about us not recognizing the "little" things of God. And, here's what i like to remind myself: "I have to become more intimate with God, before I can become intimate with a man..." keep loving God and loving others!
hugs! -Lindsey